"Desire itself is not harmful, but when you turn it into a condition, it becomes a bridle" This is something 自分 realized recently just before fighting 相手 He used to think he will only be happy once he advances his swordsmanship to [Advara], now he simply enjoys training towards it. & Ironically, this enlightenment will eventually lead him to reach [Advara] at the fight's climax against 相手.